Don't-Know-What
I don't knew exactly what it was like before the day I realized. It's based on the reality of my two days of my life and well that really stunned me. I had never came across such Fear before, yes it was fear and I body was shaking for no obvious reason than that fear of getting worse.
It was 21st of July, I saw them discussing some waste of time stuff. One of them was near to my heart and another near to my college seat nothing more than that. I knew little about that 'less-discussion-more-evil' talk. I was not part of that story but I tried putting little effort to help my near-to-heart person but I was told to stand back. It was happening in college premises. I was looking that near-to-seat person fired up and intending only fight and my near-to-heart person cool as ice. My friend was betrayed by some of his past loyalties which resulted misunderstanding among others. That end of the day saw little conclusion of that story. I was happy so was my near-to-heart person.
Next day, 22nd July I saw same topic was unfolded and that near-to-seat person approaching only the war. I tried standing tall and spoke, " It's all misunderstanding, let it go. Lets Calm." Who gave damn to that,no one! Suddenly I saw few boys around us and my body losed hope. I stared shaking. I call it what. Fear?? Must be love that I had for my friend. I never had such situations before. I have no past relating fights and whatsoever stuffs. My mind freeze because I couldn't help. My hands started shaking because I was 'had-no-answer-to-that-situation' moment. That fear was love. At the end of the most important part I was loving my friend I would say.
I learned that goodness always wins over other bad will. That's because my near-to-heart person stood tall at the end of his story. He wanted peace, he detected that, it's because that near-to-seat person could not do anything more than shouting like his shit empty mind. People are judged by their patience rather than intention to get everything at once. And well my story ends more up with love and smile because I have now learned to fight back fear.
It was 21st of July, I saw them discussing some waste of time stuff. One of them was near to my heart and another near to my college seat nothing more than that. I knew little about that 'less-discussion-more-evil' talk. I was not part of that story but I tried putting little effort to help my near-to-heart person but I was told to stand back. It was happening in college premises. I was looking that near-to-seat person fired up and intending only fight and my near-to-heart person cool as ice. My friend was betrayed by some of his past loyalties which resulted misunderstanding among others. That end of the day saw little conclusion of that story. I was happy so was my near-to-heart person.
Next day, 22nd July I saw same topic was unfolded and that near-to-seat person approaching only the war. I tried standing tall and spoke, " It's all misunderstanding, let it go. Lets Calm." Who gave damn to that,no one! Suddenly I saw few boys around us and my body losed hope. I stared shaking. I call it what. Fear?? Must be love that I had for my friend. I never had such situations before. I have no past relating fights and whatsoever stuffs. My mind freeze because I couldn't help. My hands started shaking because I was 'had-no-answer-to-that-situation' moment. That fear was love. At the end of the most important part I was loving my friend I would say.
I learned that goodness always wins over other bad will. That's because my near-to-heart person stood tall at the end of his story. He wanted peace, he detected that, it's because that near-to-seat person could not do anything more than shouting like his shit empty mind. People are judged by their patience rather than intention to get everything at once. And well my story ends more up with love and smile because I have now learned to fight back fear.
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